Excruciating Suffering: My Fight With the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense pain sprang behind my right eye. It was followed by quick jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with intense pain around one eye that lasts for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having sherry at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize life around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil entity who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, identification remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

National guidance on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some people.

But consultant specialists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are managed with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Mrs. Diana Walker
Mrs. Diana Walker

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